September

Luke's rhyme from kindergarten: We will always remember all of the fun that we had in the month of September.

Near completion of the kitchen (painted, flooring, cabinets, granite, lighting)

Getaway weekend to Door County to celebrate Matt's 40th birthday and our 15th anniversary. Stayed in a room next door to porn stars.

Julia's second sinus surgery for September 27 cancelled (clear sinus CT in early September got her off the hook for now)

Decided to keep Julia out of school for a while to see if we can give her a chance to avoid some illnesses and stay healthier

Alex's sets up spy network to make sure Luke gets away with nothing at school

Alex is very independent with school. Usually does his homework first thing when he gets home from school. Reads at bedtime. Seems to be developing a liking for reading. No complaints about his teacher (Mrs. Wierzbicki). Overall seems to be a good school year so far.

Alex rides his bike to school for the first time (with Austin and Sam).

Best friends still Jacob Amidon and Matthew Benedum, but spending lots of time with Austin after school.

Alex took Cooper to the dog park with Matthew and his family.

Luke shows us he is quite an artist, taking time to make all of his coloring superneat

At the start of the second full week of school, Luke said, "I can't wait for Christmas vacation. I need a break that is longer than two days."

Erica successfully becomes a "Kool Kid" - the night before her first day in Kool Kids, she said, "I am a little scared to be a Kool Kid because one of the girls going to Kool Kids was crying today. But, I won't cry." She hasn't had any problems.

Her first 4K friend - Kyle Slavik. Nearly every day she comes home on the 4K bus, she is in the front seat behind the driver sitting with Kyle and Heather. Even with a nearly empty bus, they sit three in a seat, and Erica is usually by the window or in the middle even though she's the first one off.

Added Julie to Julia's nursing team.

Did I Really Just Hear That?

Tonight we went to Appleby's for dinner since it's Matt's birthday. The kids were really wired. Seems Grandpa and Grandma withheld food today, and they were starved and acting crazy. Just before our food arrived, the waiter brought us all some water. Alex said we had more volume of water on the table than we would have food. Luke then spits out one of his famous and hilarious one-liners..."That's okay, we'll just load our penises and jet-pack home."

Where does that kid come up with this stuff???

It's Not Fair

I know it's not healthy to be in the 'It's not fair' line, but this week I've been throwing a little pity party for myself. It almost seems backwards since Julia's been having a really good string of days, but I have been in a foul mood. At this moment in time, I am just plain fed up. I don't want Julia to have to do extra nebulizer treatments each day, be on a heavy duty oral antibiotic and have another sinus surgery - all to resolve a problem we thought we fixed with the sinus surgery in May. Enough already. Especially since each of these treatment options comes at a price. The topical antibiotic/nebulizer treatments are difficult to administer and expensive. The Zyvox was hard to find and the dosage was wrong - pharmacist Mommy figured it out after two pharmacists and the doctor missed the dosing error. And we have to do bloodwork to make sure her platelets are okay. Another sinus surgery...ugh. Not to mention, we need to do another CT scan prior to surgery. Lately it seems I spend most days that I am not working either at Children's or on the phone with Children's. It is exhausting to keep up with all of the medical stuff. And, if truth be told, I am tired of having a nurse in our home every weekday. We completely appreciate all of the help they give us, but some days I just want to hang out in my jammies or act silly with my kids or read a book without feeling weird. Privacy. Down time. Family time. I miss those things.

Okay, I know it's time for the pity party to come to an end. Because as we've learned during these last eight and a half years, the 'It's not fair' line doesn't move. So, it's best to just move on. After all, I don't see Julia complaining, and she's the one who is most entitled to it. I guess it's time to go back to doing a gratitude journal again. Counting my blessings is sure to get me in a better mood, isn't it?

Peaceful Shower...NOT

This morning while I was in the shower, Erica came in crying and upset because Luke had locked her out of the other bathroom. Two minutes later, she came back even more upset because Luke was going to put her in the toilet. Compassionate mommy that I am, I told her to stop being upset since Luke was obviously just teasing her since she wouldn't even fit in the toilet. Then, she asked for a hug, which is always her request when she's really distraught - even if she's mad at me, she still requests a hug. I guess it's a really good thing that a hug can usually fix the problem. But, every so often, a little privacy and peace while I'm in the shower would be refreshing.

Suite 1101

It has been a long week. Preceded by a long winter. This winter has been a long, hard learning experience for us. Julia has had back-to-back-to-back sinus infections. We've been working with an ENT for the last couple of months (Dr. Sulman, who is an AWESOME addition to Julia's team). She started us with 4 weeks of antibiotics. Followed by a CT scan. Followed by 4 more weeks of antibiotics. Followed by a week of clarythromycin. Followed by an ambulance ride. Followed by six days at Children's. Followed by a 3-hour sinus surgery. Followed by at least two weeks of Vancomycin IV antibiotics.

The nearly week-long stay at the hospital was spent in the penthouse suite - the largest room on the top floor of patient rooms. Beautiful room, huge bathroom, and just not home. Bad bed, no sleep, lots of stress, beeping machines. Quiet time, great views, no cooking, reading books. Not-so-great nurses, PICC line, CT scan, postponed surgery. Healthier, happier Julia. And, it is so good to be on the other side of this challenge. Even though the last couple of weeks have been filled with stress and roadblocks, we are so hopeful that the payoff is going to be huge - we're getting our happy, spunky, sassy girl back again, and it is so nice.

So, even though life doesn't always seem fair, right now it feels so good. We have so much to be grateful for. Seems to me I got the best birthday gift I could have hoped for this year. And, the long road getting here makes it so much sweeter.

Luke Says the Darndest Things

About 3 weeks ago, Luke had to have a talk with the principal. On the bus ride to school, he called one of his 4K buddies a jackass. He seemed to think that was okay since his buddy called him a fat shark. To really top things off, the bus driver asked Alex to take Luke to the principal's office. Alex, who has never had to visit the principal himself, thought this was the best thing to ever happen at school. Should we be worried that Luke had his first trip to the principal's office while still in 4K?

Luke also has some girlfriends already. A few days ago, he told me he wanted to kiss Kina. I told him he was too young to be thinking about kissing girls. He responded that he would have to kiss her when they got married. I told him that wouldn't be for a long time. He said, "You mean like 50 years?" I'm not sure he will be able to wait that long since Ethan also wants to marry Kina. Luke seems to think he has the advantage over Ethan since: 1 - he's older than Ethan and 2 - he sits closer to Kina on the carpet (at least until they got new spots). But, Kina's not the only girl that boy has on his list. He also likes Kayla (he made sure to buy her a candy bar for her birthday with his own money), Hana (much older woman at age 12) - and, of course, Mom and Grandma!

27 Things I've Learned as a Mother

1. It is possible to have toys creep into every single nook and cranny of your house.
2. You can never take too many pictures.
3. Time goes by faster as your kids get older.
4. Some of the best memories come from the silly everyday moments.
5. It is possible to love your kids so much that it hurts.
6. Little things, like a Dora toothbrush or a trip to the library, can make a big difference.
7. Your kids appreciate you even if they don't always tell you so.
8. It's not always easy to get your kids to eat healthy food, but it is completely possible.
9. Sometimes it's nice to buy a friend a chocolate bar for their birthday...and get one for yourself.
10. Boring is not always a bad thing.
11. Belly kisses are hysterical.
12. It is possible to love all of your kids equally, yet completely differently.
13. Boys and girls are wired differently.
14. The best knock knock jokes have a punchline that makes absolutely no sense.
15. Simple is often better.
16. Ice cream is always a good thing.
17. Little kids are really smart if you just pay attention.
18. I have lots more patience than I ever would have guessed.
19. It is possible to lose your mind on a daily basis and still function.
20. It doesn't pay to worry about things that might not ever happen.
21. Play Doh is a lot of fun, but makes a big mess.
22. Naps make the day go better.
23. A fart by any other name is still a fart, and it will make kids laugh.
24. You can't live vicariously through your kids, but it's great to look at life through the eyes of a child every once in a while.
25. Love will give you the strength to do things you never would have guessed you would be able to do.
26. Grocery shopping can count as a date - even as a fun date, especially if you thrown in lunch at Noodles or Panera Bread.
27. Dirty laundry will multiply if it's left alone in a dark room.

Crazy Girls? I Like Crazy Girls!

Two weeks ago, Erica was just starting to get really sick with viral bronchitis. It was eight o'clock on a Monday night, and Matt and I were just getting ready to watch some grown-up TV. Erica was upset and coughing so hard she threw up. After she started to settle down, I told her she could snuggle with me while we watched The Bachelor. To explain, I said "The Bachelor is a show where a bunch of crazy girls are all after the same guy." She paused for a split second and said, "Crazy girls? I like crazy girls."

A week later, we were loading up to take Julia to yet another doctor appointment. Erica sat in the back, Julia and Christa sat in the middle and I was driving. Then, Erica informs us that we are just like the crazy girls all riding on that bus. Um, yeah, it kind of was just like that - the bachelorettes were all riding in an RV in the episode we watched together, and our strange seating arrangement was sort of like that. And, in case you were wondering, she also remembered that the bachelor's name is Jake - seems we were watching quality adult TV with a three-year-old that was really paying attention.

January Round-Up

- Making eggnog pound cake and eggnog muffins in an attempt to use up lots and lots of leftover eggnog.
- Alex brought home a C on his Social Studies test (first C I can remember him getting), and was quite upset about it.
- Julia had some sporatic attendance at school. Although she has been relatively healthy, she has lots and lots of sinus congestion. It takes the whole morning to get things moving and cleared out. She saw a new pediatrician who said she is not contagious. Nice thought, but everyone but Luke has the same sinus junk and cough, so if it's not contagious, how did we all get it at the same time??
- Cooper is still chewing - latest casualty is the Super Mario Brothers DS game.

December Round-Up

All in all, not a bad month:

- Julia returned to school on December 23, just in time for some holiday celebrations. She had a great day. She had been absent for just over two months.
- We took two trips to the Enchantment in the Park light display at Fair Park. The outdoor courtyard with the light display sychronized to music was my favorite part. I even found a new holiday song I LOVE - Snowflake.
- Lots and lots of gifts for the kids - highlight was Luke's new Nintendo DS. In his words, he got the grand prize.
- Tubing at Sunburst with my boys. It was packed, but we had a good time.
- A very white Christmas - I'm not sure what the stats say, but it seems like we're getting a lot of snow this season. It did make for an eventful drive to and from Matt's parents on the 26th.
- After waiting until nearly the last minute, we pulled off another year of cookie trays.
- Going with Erica, Luke and Alex to see "The Squeakquel" - after dinner at Noodles, we still had room for soda, popcorn and M'n'Ms at the movie. Yummy. The movie was good, but I did like the first one a little bit better.

The Easter/Christmas Mix-Up

We arrived for Christmas eve mass about 40 minutes before the services started and we sat closer to the front than we usually do. Those two changes set up a situation that was sweet, frustrating, cute and a bit heartbreaking all in one. Here's what happened - once we were seated and settled, I took Erica and Luke up to the Nativity scene so they could get a close look at Baby Jesus. Then, we settled back into our pew. The kids looked at books for a little while (we usually don't bring books to church, but we knew there would be extra time to fill). After she was done with the books, she started studying the pictures on the wall of the Stations of the Cross. That led to many, many questions - "Why is Jesus on the cross? Who put Jesus there? Do you see how sad his mommy is? How did they get Jesus down? Why did the soldiers think Jesus was a bad guy? Why did they take his clothes? Why did they make him carry the heavy cross?" Once she understood that Jesus died on the cross, she was heartbroken. She started crying and saying, "I miss Jesus." By this time, Mass has started, but she wasn't finished figuring things out. We kept telling her that she needed to be quiet, but she said, "I have lots of questions!" Finally Luke said, "Erica, Jesus died for our sins, but he rose again. I will show you in my Bible when we get home." She finally settled down, but she wanted to see the Bible story for herself as soon as we got home. So, that's how Erica learned about the Easter miracle...on Christmas eve. On a side note, when we went to Sunday mass, she was still studying the art on the walls, and Father Rick asked what she was looking at. She told him, "Pictures of Jesus." He explained that there were fourteen pictures, with seven on each side. She spent a good part of mass confirming his count.

Wardrobe Management

I have spent the last three days doing laundry. But, it's really more than just doing laundry - it's more wardrobe management. Sorting, washing, folding, hanging and putting away clothes for six people is a huge job. On top of that, I have a complete system for processing hand-me-downs and advance-purchase clothes. The system is pretty straighforward for the boys - Alex outgrows his clothes, they go into storage tubs in the basement,they come out when they fit Luke. The system for girls is a little more complicated, but in a good way. We are lucky to get lots and lots of hand-me-downs. Sources include: the Hoxworth girls, the McLaughlin girls, and now the Christiansen girls. Some of the hand-me-downs fit Julia, some fit Erica, and some are in-between. By the time all of the clothes get to Erica, she has about three complete wardrobes, complete with shoes and accessories. A perfect situation for my little style diva.

Christmas Letter - Take 2

Sometimes, God makes it a little more challenging to count your blessings. For us, this has been one of those years. We've had what seemed to be more than our share of heartbreak and anxiety. In June, Michele's Grandma Maddie passed away. In October, her Grandma Ertl died. Later in October, Julia got the H1N1 virus, and she's been sick ever since, fighting back-to-back illnesses. Since July, Matt's had four weeks of work furloughs, with one more coming over the holidays. In many respects, it’s been a tough year.

But, there's the other side of the story - the wonderful blessings that far outweigh the difficulties. Although they are very much missed, both grandmas lived long, full, happy lives. As sick as Julia has been, she has not been hospitalized, and she's on the road to recovery. And, while Matt's been on furlough, Michele is able to work full-time and more.

Here are a few of the highlights about the kids this year:

Alex – Very clever and far too grown up for his age. He’s very involved with Cub Scouts (the next time you see Matt, ask him about the swimming test he took at Cub Scout Summer Camp). Alex continues to do well in school (as long as he’s not daydreaming about building contraptions.) And, in spite of reminding us that having the little kids “ruined his life,” he is usually a wonderful big brother. He still has a great work ethic, and has taken over cutting the lawn and shoveling the driveway among many other jobs. He is a joy to be around, even if most of our one-on-one time comes during errands, grocery shopping and brushing our teeth.

Julia - Before illness set in, Julia had a great summer. She loves to swing, and her new game is to kick the person pushing her and then smirk. She has been ‘talking’ to us more by responding to questions and comments with vocalizations - and her timing is too perfect to be a coincidence. She likes to be part of the conversation, and I don't think she always agrees with us. Julia also has four new members in her entourage – nurses that are with her five days a week, making sure all of her medical needs are met. We’re sure they are a large part of the reason Julia has not ended up in the hospital in spite of being a very sick little girl over the last two months. She loves the extra attention, and mom and dad are happy to get a bit of a break once in a while.

Luke – He’s still our outgoing, charming boy. He’s in 4K five mornings a week, which he loves because he can spend time with his ‘buddies.’ He loves going to the Texas Roadhouse, and has charmed one of the hostesses into giving him dance lessons every time we’re there. And, that kid really has some good moves (he did not get that from his father…) He has also proven to be a little fish, and is doing great with swimming lessons.

Erica – She is in 3K three mornings a week, and she loves it. All too quickly, our ‘baby’ is turning into one headstrong little girl. She is so much sweet and sass wrapped in one adorable package, we can’t help but hold back laughter when she starts in. She has a comeback for everything, like the time we asked her to pick up the many toys she had out and she responded, “Hello! I am not an octopus girl. I can’t pick up eight things at one time.” Oh, but the sweet side of that girl. She gives the tightest hugs, has a sparkle in her eye and is just full of love.

And, we have a new furry addition - a teddy bear puppy named Cooper joined our family in August. We may be biased, but he's the cutest little guy on four legs we've ever seen. He's also a little stinker, but we can't help but love him.

Happy holidays to our family and friends. We hope that your blessings far outnumber the challenges you face.

Wishing you peace, love and hope -
The Rosners

Merry Christmas from the Rosners

Sometimes, God makes it a little more challenging to count your blessings. For us, this has been one of those years. We've had what seemed to be more than our share of heartbreak and anxiety. In June, Michele's Grandma Maddie passed away. In October, her Grandma Ertl died. Later in October, Julia got the H1N1 virus, and she's been sick ever since, fighting back-to-back illesses. Over the last few months, our dishwasher started on fire, our washing machine started spraying water on the floor and the transmission on our relatively new van had to be replaced. Matt's had four weeks of work furloughs, with one more coming over the holidays. There have been days when we've wanted to pull the covers back over our heads and just hide out for a while.

But, there's the other side of the story - the wonderful blessings that far outweigh the difficulties. Although they are very much missed, both grandmas lived long, full, happy lives. As sick as Julia has been, she has not needed to be hospitalized and she's on the road to recovery. The new dishwasher works great, Matt fixed the washing machine and our van should run for many more years. And, while Matt's been on furlough, Michele is able to work as many hours as she can.

We are so lucky. Four kids that fill our lives with laughter and love. Erica is headstrong and sweet. Luke is lovable and happy. Julia is strong and easy-going. Alex is smart and thoughtful. They make us laugh every single day. And, we have a new furry addition - a teddy bear puppy named Cooper joined our family in August. We may be biased, but he's the cutest little guy on four legs we've ever seen. He's also a little stinker, but we can't help but love him.

Happy holidays to our family and friends. We hope that your blessings far outnumber the challenges you face.

Wishing you peace, love and hope -
The Rosners

Kid Funnies

Luke wanted to use Alex's DS. Alex told him, "Luke, sterilize your hands before you use it." Luke said, "What does that mean? I have to stare at my hands?"

Erica had to pick up her kitchen toys that were all over the living room. She said she needed help, but we told her she could do it on her own. She said, "Hello! I am not an octopus-girl here. I can't pick up eight things at once." Then she said, "I have to pick up so a little pumpkin named Cooper doesn't get my toys."

Random Word = Cleaner

The challenge: Use a random word generator to get a word, and then journal using that word. Well, okay, that sounds like it might be interesting.

So, while watching "Clean House," I got the word cleaner. Now, that's ironic.

Here's my brain dump all around the word "cleaner":

• I've been going greener and using more natural cleaners. Matt thinks I have gone vinegar crazy. But, the nurses use it to clean Julia's neb kit and other stuff, so maybe I'm not so crazy after all. I will be exploring more 'recipes' for other natural cleaners.
• Along with being cleaner, we've been working on more de-cluttering. We're making progress, but it's slow going sometimes. My head knows it's just stuff, but when it comes to parting with it, I'm convinced I will someday have a use for it and regret getting rid of it. Believe it or not, I'm better at getting rid of my own stuff than I am with the kids' stuff. They really do have more toys than they need, so I'm going to have to toughen up.
• Also related to cleaner - organized. We have A LOT of stuff, but most of it is well-organized. Seasonal decorations, kids' clothes, craft supplies, cleaning supplies...it's all pretty darn organized.

October Round-Up

This month might have passed by more quickly than any month I can remember. In many ways, that is a good thing because it was not a stellar month:

• Grandma Ertl died (Oct 7). Uncle Andy died just five days later.
• Sick, sick and sick - Erica and Luke ran fevers off and on for days (each missed a few days of school, may or may not have been a mild case of H1N1), I had a sinus infection (finally got antibiotics after weeks of trying to tough it out), Alex got H1N1 (missed the three days of school during the 3-day teacher convention week), Julia got probable H1N1 (treated with Tamiflu) followed by pneumonia (treated with Zithromax). The ironic part is we did everything we could think of to protect Julia from the swine flu. We kept her home as soon as we heard rumor of an outbreak at her school, we got her immunized at the first opportunity (along with Luke, Erica, me and Matt), we kept her home after the immunization to give it time to fully protect her. The upside - maybe the immunization provided some protection so she didn't get even sicker. The other upside - we don't have to worry about getting it anymore because now we've had it.
• Julia's impact reaches further than we sometimes realize. My co-worker's daughter (Brianna) started a prayer chain with her friends as soon as she heard Julia had H1N1. That's one cool 8th grader. Jill brought us brownies and banana bread. Many others prayed and sent get well wishes.
• Julia has a team of three nurses (soon to be four). Maggie is here three days a week (T, W, R), Christa is here Mondays, Christine is here Fridays. We have been so grateful for their help with getting Julia well again. She is a full-time job!
• Furlough week - Matt was on furlough the week the kids were all sick - not so lucky for him. And, I didn't make a lot of progress on my work projects because I was so tired and worried, I could not function all that well.
• Halloween - Alex (Spider-Man), Luke (dinosaur) and Erica (princess) were well enough to trick or treat at my work on Friday. And, in spite of cold, windy weather, we did trick-or-treat around our neighborhood on Saturday. The boys wore winter coats under their costumes and Erica was a pink poodle instead of a princess. True to form, Erica started complaining about five houses from home. She wanted to trick or treat at my work instead of outside - not an option. Luke soon was asking for water - also not an option. We were with the McLaughlins, so Erica rode in the stroller with Ally and Luke was busy running with Ryan, so he mostly forgot how thirsty he was. We made it for 1 1/4 hours of trick-or-treating, and we now have LOTS of candy.
• Had Julia's IEP meeting - Let's just say it didn't go all that well, and I now have a newfound dislike for plastic apples. I'm not sure when Julia's team gave up on her, but they seem to have lost faith in her ability to do anything. So discouraging, but we're going to keep exploring our alternatives because Julia deserves a team that believes in her as much as we do! We did have an evaluation for private physical therapy, and that should be getting started soon.
• Luke started swimming lessons. We both had a great time. Luke loved the shower after swimming almost as much as the lesson itself. It was a great chance to have some one-on-one time with my little guy who seems to be growing up way too quickly lately.
• Alex was extremely busy with Cub Scouts. He earned a couple of badges and belt loops this month. Scout outings included a trip to Horicon Marsh (Matt also liked that one) and a trip to Pike Lake to learn from one of the rangers. Alex left a really good impression with his intelligent answers, and the ranger tracked him down after the session to compliment him and tell him about a ranger shadowing program for high school kids in case Alex develops an interest in being a ranger.

Siblings

One of the most rewarding and fascinating parts about having a larger family – sibling dynamics. Watching each of the kids develop their own unique personality, and then watching how those personalities mesh together into one family…it’s remarkable. I can give a quick summary of what the relationships look like on the surface: Alex and Luke fight as often as they got along, Luke and Erica are great buddies, Erica and Julia share a special sister bond, Alex is very protective of Erica. But, that doesn’t come anywhere near describing the depth of the relationship the kids have with one another. There are the subtle ways that Erica copies the things her brothers do; how Alex seems to ignore Julia, but listens and processes everything that’s happening with her; the bond that’s growing stronger between the boys now that Luke’s growing up and they are in the same school; the way they all accept Julia’s limitations without question or complaint (most of the time); the teamwork between them as they work for a common cause (usually in a team-up against mom and dad); the way Erica tries to boss the boys around even though she’s just a little peanut – so many nuances that make their relationships impossible to understand completely. But, there is one thing that is crystal clear to me. As my kids get older, one of my greatest wishes for them is to develop, nurture and keep a strong bond and lots of love between all of them. They sure do make a dynamic team, and I hope the sibling bonds keep getting stronger.

A Bad Week

I know it's only Tuesday, but this has not been a good week. So far:

• Sunday - Matt took Julia for her weekly bloodwork and it took six pokes to draw enough blood. They were late getting home and we missed church.
• Monday - Cooper nearly got run over by Julia's bus. Luckily the boys that ride the bus with Julia saw Cooper in the driveway and told the driver (not Anna) to stop.
• Tuesday - Cooper went to the vet and got sick (carsick?) on the way home. He threw up all over Erica, her carseat and the backseat of the Camry. He has also been crying all day - the injection sites must be very sore and he is a big baby.
• Tuesday - Luke almost got hit by a car as he was getting off the bus. Matt saw the whole thing happen, but only luck kept Luke from getting hit. Here's how it happened: Luke needed to go back on the bus because he had forgotten his coat and Matt crossed the street with him. Luke grabbed his coat, got off the bus and started running across the street. In the meantime, an old lady tried to go around the bus from behind - even though the lights were on and the stop sign was out. She will be getting a citation. She also heard harsh words from Matt.
• Tuesday - Grandma Ertl died. She has been having failing health for the last month (since GI surgery on Labor Day where they removed 6-8 inches of small intestines), and she has been in hospice care for several days very near death. Her passing today was a blessing because she is now at peace. But, this comes so close on the heels of losing Grandma Maddie, and it seems like deja vu all over again. What a double whammie.

I would like to say things can only get better from here, but I'm a bit afraid to see what the rest of the week might bring.

Like Mother, Like Daughter

Sometimes we see ourselves in our kids in the most unexpected ways. For the last few weeks, Erica has been carting around many, many babies. There are at least seven of them in bed with her every night. There's a regular rotation of dollies in the stroller. Today, all of the babies were missing from her bed. Why, you ask? Because she took them all out into the living room for a party. When she talks about what she wishes for, it's always 'babies' - real babies or dollies, I'm not sure. Bottom line, this girlie of mine loves her babies. Just like her mama.